Anyway, Adam was unceasingly striving for his independence and own personality. So he began to take countermeasures. He deliberately threw off the principle’s witness-function by shifting his own stream of consciousness abruptly, changing the line of thinking and actual activity – for example by suddenly speaking in an intimate and sympathetic way with his wife, getting a little emotional and at the same time sticking a finger in the soup. This behaviour was too conflicting for the principle to follow or comprehend, and for a split second it had no access to the situation or Adam’s consciousness. It was not updated. In this way the principle and Adam started to compete on watchfulness and vigilance of consciousness. Adam knew when the principle was not on and he was private in his mind and thought, but these moments were scarce. Please remember that Adam was under complete energy-control by the principle and dependent on its manipulations if he was ever to be delivered free and normal again, at least so he thought. It could easily kill him. Because of that, Adam was not able to think or discuss critically and openly concerning the situation, but concealed his worry and suspicion in half-thought thoughts. What happened then was, that this constant play of hide and seek in the mind-field between them and in Adam’s own thoughts developed further and became more and more subtle – in the same way as when his body-movements were taken over. The principle started to shift its altered voice and approximate it to Adam’s own voice. It commented on his capability to split the conscious functioning in two and place one part at disposal to the principle while administering these constant shifts of subject and background without getting confused, crazy or scared. Then it suddenly talked with Adam’s normal voice and tone and still he knew that it and not he himself was “on”. Afterwards, the principle introduced several voices and matching personalities or agencies. And the process reached a point, when Adam could produce long and elaborate speeches on behalf of the principle in one of its many aspects in his own voice, and then debate with it afterwards, or even start to cut in, throw it of, hold it on stand by, or ridicule it by twisting the words and meaning of its reasoning. Actually this was great fun and triumph, when occasionally Adam succeeded in luring the principle into saying too much, but Adam never had the impression of gaining access to the consciousness of the principle itself.

We realize that this accurate description takes us very close to a split- or multiple personality disorder, but this similarity only demonstrates the opposite causal relation, namely that many psychotic people could in reality be in a state of possession. Today, in retrospect, we are truly amazed that Adam never broke down or caved in to madness. Only through extreme endurance, patience and self-control did he avoid panic and anxiety-attack and stayed mentally focussed, separating and containing himself in his own belief, analyzing what was going on. Adam was compliant, negotiating and firm in his dealings with the principle, and this composure was in fact acknowledged and commented on by it. In reality the pressure ought to have split Adam completely, but he kept on hanging together and maintained a core of personality and a centre of consciousness. This situation came close to the original dream with B and his gnome, trying to paralyze Adam’s consciousness and take possession of him. Searching for an explanation of this power of resistance, the principle seemingly checked out his karma and memory and pointed to the possibility, that the experience of traumatic hospitalization could provide an answer. When Adam was a child, he had to live through long periods of anxiety and fear alone and surrender to negative treatment, so he was in the habit of surviving under such pressure. Actually the principle provided a few clarifications of Adam’s childhood-experiences and formation of psychological complexes and patterns.

The enclosure of Adam’s consciousness was probably even more extensive than that of his energy- and body-system. He did not sleep during the night. He had no access to the astral plane and he did not dream or leave his body, separating the subtle bodies as he normally would do in the sleep process. Rather Adam was contained in the energy field of the principle on a mental level, and his sleep states resembled extremely complex processes of understanding – structures, principles and patterns – and also an ongoing experiment with the conscious borders of identity and self. If the principle was totally uncongenial with Adam’s soul, then he was cut of from any guidance. Adam had occasional dream-images, only they were not spontaneous, but constructed in an intellectual fashion. They did not have the multi-valence of real dreams and were not creative like these. Adam did not trust those dreams. Actually, in one instance he arrested the production of this type of mock-dream. Adam was slipping halfway into a sequence of images, when he sensed the corresponding energy-structure entering his pineal. It looked like a black bristle worm, one foot long. When he sensed it and protested against the dream, the worm withdrew immediately and disappeared into an unknown dimension of energy. Adam has later seen these energy-structures behind dreams on several occasions, though his dream-function has now returned to normal again.

The immense emotional and mental stress put on him during the day and the lack of refreshment during sleep was very depleting, and surely Adam would have collapsed sometime in the process, if the principle had not monitored his energy-level and balanced his system in a manner that is impossible to explain. It was done through the transmission of energy in the outer circuits, up under the feet and channelled through the body, and this stream of energy cut off Adam’s system from normal grounding and intake of earth-energy. Adam was not very physical, not very astral or emotional, and perhaps not even etheric, since we do not know the type of energy pervading him. The principle also applied a considerable psychological pressure. Personally, Adam is a mental fear-type and the principle put him through extreme terrors. It announced and launched murderous attacks from demons and otherwise, placing Adam in some defence-position with the sure knowledge of the possibility of ending his life right there and then. Many times a day it assured him that it would not kill him – at least not now, but perhaps now! And because of its massive body- and energy-control, Adam could never rule out the possibility of a sudden death. Anyhow, real fear is a cure of imagined fear!

The principle commanded considerable manipulative powers with regard to chakras and energy-streams. It could literally “take away” any chakra or more likely dismiss Adam’s sensation of it, thus making this area of the body completely numb and empty. And it did so several times and scorned Adam, because he had not protected the most valuable structures in his make up. It is a terrible feeling to get stripped off in that way – loosing the heart and the quality-aura for instance. You feel extremely naked, shameful and vulnerable, and non-human. Of course this is all rubbish! You can only loose your heart or your qualities temporarily by not living in accordance with them, and that was what happened to Adam at the Centre, so this was an effective object lesson for him! In one instance the principle simulated a death-process that Adam allegedly had experienced in an earlier incarnation due to specific circumstances. That death was caused by a total collapse of the chakra-system. It lasted more than two hours and was absolutely horrible. Adam was very, very weak, could not speak and sort of dried away. Also in the prolonged period of the deepest descent of the principle, all Adam’s chakras were regulated in the weirdest fashion through the spine. Their forward movement and radiance was almost blocked, and they circulated inward. Thus his sensitivity and feeling of contact with other people was diminished. Adam was virtually wrapped up in a sort of cocoon. This wrapping was later dismantled structure by structure and layer by layer, and consequently Adam got some idea of the whole construction. At one point he was left with the function of the outer circuits in the aura, the grounding from under the feet up through the centreline to the point of essence and with all the chakras turned inward. His eyes were completely dead and had no sparkle in them, since the subtle energy and consciousness was completely turned in- and upward. Adam protested vehemently against this degradation of his true humanity! This was a very illustrative experience of the ultimate problem with meditation and what would have become of Adam, had he not left the Centre.

Another complex feature of the experience was sound and vibration, which we associate with the infrasound-dream and the time-machine-dream. The sound- and vibration aspect – by the way characteristic for Tibetan magic – was present throughout the whole experience. When the energy-level was at its maximum, there was a globe-shape approximately five feet in diameter situated in the middle of the house, constantly humming one deep bass-toned tune with five notes. Besides that, the energies were ringing in Adam’s ears and in the aura all the time. These sounds were present many months prior to and after the epiphany.