In yet another lucid dream Adam experienced this connection. He witnessed a commentary to the personal development of B in his early years of becoming a teacher. B was trying to impress people by jumping into the street from an alley with a preliminary run showing his power and virility. They thought he was “flying” across the street, but of course it was merely a trick. Then one of his pupils actually levitated. He stood out in the air from the roof of a building nearby. Adam looked at the scenery with no special appreciation, but then he was suddenly floating in the air himself. He was moving upwards a mountain river in Tibet. But it was not only a river, but a sparkling stream of karma or karmic energy, loaded with information. Then Adam came up to a shrine, high up in the mountains. The shrine was dedicated to a Tibetan saint and recluse, who had lived there. Adam went inside the shrine and had a feeling of awe. There was a Tibetan altar and a figure of the saint, and then the figure became alive. Books of gold, written in Sanskrit, expired from his mouth, but again Adam felt no appreciation. Instead Adam communicated to him that he was a Christian and that this was all strange and irrelevant to him. Then the saint gave Adam a small book to read, one of the Upanishads, that he was more familiar with. End of dream. The first scene is typical of B. He was always very competitive with men in a boyish manner when feeling secure and having the upper hand, primarily with his male disciples, and in a mental way when it was men of status he wished to impress and conquer. This desire and impulse to demonstrate power and virility, and also the playful attitude, were very characteristic of him. Perhaps it can best be explained from a personal masculine inferiority-complex in combination with the normal character-defence of the introverted intellectual. Also the intense wish to be perceived as extraordinary and elevated may be noted here. Anyhow, the connection with the underlying, superior energy-field is clearly demonstrated in the river, and so is the tradition at hand, and the relation between B’s personal sphere of action and motivation and the transcendent one, though we are not sure about the real status and intent of the saint. He could be a genuinely well-intentioned mind, wanting only to inform Adam on B’s conjuring. He could also very well be related to the Indian and tantric background of Padmasambhava and hence to the above- mentioned lineage of “magician-saints”, since Luciferic levitation is a common feature of these dreams. Anyway, when dealing with B you never doubted the fact, that you confronted collective powers that were using him as a medium of interaction, and that he was eager to fly and thus more than willing to be their instrument!

We should not forget here that Adam himself was chosen by a demon and that his relation with B perhaps is best described as a demoniacal acquaintance. In other words, in his karmic background Adam is not unfamiliar with initiation or Luciferic temptation. So actually Adam is grateful to B for showing him this connection and setting an illuminating example to be avoided. Nothing of this was clear to the young and green Adam, but his dreams and soul-level were well-informed and tried to attract his attention from the very outset. Only Adam had no high opinion of himself; he almost looked down on himself and had at the same time a peculiar innocent quality.

All of this is evident from an early lucid dream in which Adam was confronted with a powerful demon as big as an apartment house. He balanced this creature through a square of reddish energy, floating in the streets around a block, while screaming and frightened faces were hurling themselves at him. The pressure was immense. The confrontation was somehow related to B’s activities and Adam’s connection with him, and the motive was explained in a strange parable: “Satan desired the pipe of the carpenter's apprentice.” Now the reader might wonder why Adam ever became associated with B in the first place and did not flee when shown images and experiences like this. We can only refer here to his personal naivety and immaturity in combination with an openness of mind and the overpowering energies. And perhaps there was also guidance involved. Today content and context of the dream are more intelligible, but at the time Adam was perplexed and someone like B did nothing to change this, on the contrary. The demon here is a Luciferic power. We think it is very close to the “personal” demon that invaded Adam from his youth, and later we shall hint at its background. But the demon also has a collective dimension and is clearly representative for B’s enterprise, motives, and actions. The reddish energy is characteristic of B’s attendance and influx – remember the red splash of the dorje. The dream shows an impact from the demon created by B in the chakra at the perineum and the coccyx – the square and the block. The carpenter is of course a reference to the Christian tradition. The pipe is on one hand a phallic symbol, showing the constantly interfering sexual motive of B, and on the other hand a reference to the spine. Some level of collective fear is involved, because this demon induces terror. But what is actually taking place here?

Admittedly it is a bit difficult to understand the meaning of Satan’s desire, but let us offer an intuitive explanation. B once in a remark to Adam asked him, why he was always expecting the energy to descend on him during prayer, like grace from above – an indication of his inherent spiritual orientation. The discrepancy here between Adam and B is by the way very significant. There are people who just wait for God to reveal himself, and they sit happily at his doorstep in awe and wonder over his beautiful creation. And there are people who want to have a controlled ascent and wish to obtain an audience right now. And so they need some sort of fuel for their body-rocket-machinery. A picturesque and grotesque image of this is the “flying Sidhi-yogis” of TM, performing vehement respiration exercises and provoking spasmodic starts in their muscles, which lead them to believe they are hovering in the air. Perhaps they will be birds in their next incarnation? A type like B is of course more sophisticated and so he suggested to Adam, that the energy should instead rise from below the spine and upwards, and explained, that Adam had the possibility to develop this energy-flow to a high degree, which was apparently in Bs interest. This suggestion fits nicely with the motif of levitation in Adam’s dreams.

The controlled upward movement of energy in the spine is closely related with kundalini yoga and tantric techniques, the latter being generally applied on the Centre and among the larger group of participants in workshops, combined with chakra-exercises. On another level this movement is connected with the aforementioned transport and transformation of energy to benefit the Luciferic powers. In this regard you might understand the meditating group of people at the Centre as having the function of a gigantic waterspout or tornado sucking up subtle spiritual energy from the etheric field coordinated with astral pressure on and agitation of the collective mind – the frightened people in Adam’s dream – as we discussed earlier in the vision of the palace and the symbol of the bread. We have witnessed this connection again and again in Adam’s lucid dreaming. For instance in a dream Adam participates in a group-meditation at the Centre, and his body is moved around in a fixed pattern by an invisible, magnetic force, no doubt of Luciferic and evil origin. Everybody is elevating sacks of flour to different chakra-levels as an offering. Flour is of course refined corn and a natural female symbol of the sun’s spiritually vitalized product from the earth, used for our daily bread, human life and community, but here misused in a Luciferic setting. In another dream a resident of the Centre is working on a mandala in the floor and Adam comments that his work is used again and again to yield interest to a monitoring power. Then Adam lifts and carries a sack of flour on his own back, while the other fellow is transporting his sack on a donkey on their way to the storage. The symbol of the donkey refers to how the human body and uninformed people are being abused to produce and carry forward this offering to Lucifer, and it is a tart comment to the different attitude of Christianity with Christ riding a donkey on his entry to Jerusalem at Easter, offering himself and his life to God. B’s proposal here – and the actual attempt and wish of the demon that is perhaps using B’s activity as an instrument – was that Adam made himself more useful in this “refinement” and transfer of energy from the collective human realm to the Luciferic dimension, since he had this opportunity by virtue of the desired pipe or spine with its easy flow. Perhaps B also needed it himself for his tantric procedures? Who knows?

Ironically someone like B in his understanding of himself perceives the same structure, but interprets it quite to the opposite. He knows that he somehow constitutes a vortex between dimensions of reality, but in his view he is channelling infinite love and wisdom to his disciples and to society from the plane of the enlightened masters. That is a nice thought and an idealistic self-image, and not only is this fundamental belief taken for granted, but it has become such an intimate part of people’s view and self perception at the Centre, that they now personify themselves with goodness and kindness. Nobody take a closer look at the factual economy of transactions and only recently people have started to wonder – on their own egoistic behalf, naturally – why nobody is getting anywhere in spite of all the sacrifices and invested efforts. They have practiced now for more than twenty years and each spent perhaps a total of four years sitting on the behind day and night, eagerly awaiting illumination, but not one single person can claim that he or she has reached a state of autonomy or certainty besides fanatic conviction. This paradoxical situation is not special to this Centre. The picture is the same everywhere in Western New Age meditation-sects. Within the last couple of years there has been an ongoing debate in USA on the interesting issue: “Why not or whether Tibetan Buddhism is working in the West”, with contributions from lamas, devotees and apostates. The fierce debate reflects a surprisingly normal Tibetan patronizing and cultural bias directed against the uncivilized and unrefined Westerners, who seek a place in their spiritual hierarchy and offer material wealth in return. In spite of this reference to spiritual immaturity, the fact remains that only few Westerners, if any at all, has achieved anything outstanding or worthwhile via their contribution of maybe more than a million man-years. Of course their efforts are nothing compared to centuries of monastery tradition inside Tibet, but the question is only emphasized if we are then going to estimate the outcome of a billion man-years invested here. No wonder that many New Age interested people in the West are constantly in search of the newest lama and guru, clinging to the renewed inspiration they hope for here. Middle-aged New Agers have an urgent need for quick, instant enlightenment.

This fundamental futility is easily explained from the reality of the involved forces and motives and from the economy of energy associated with the Centre and other sects. Of course energy does not simply disappear, and something is actually produced from this tremendous work, but you cannot expect the result to contradict the involved and governing Luciferic matrix! You must not blame Lucifer either, since he has every right to harvest the folly that grows in utter darkness or in the dim light of the moon. The tremendous imbalance involved corresponds to the enormous size of illusion. Despite the claim of B and his peers of all the love and wisdom, that flow down and out from their “Master-field”, the actuality of the situation is that B and the Centre consume people’s work, life, and effort in abundance with or without their knowing consent. B was quite explicit about this when once he openly explained to people on the Centre that the many had to sacrifice their energy to benefit the few in order to elevate them. Later some of this energy was to be directed back to the many, but now under control of the ruling body. When he heard that proclamation, Adam realized the social damage and soon after left the Centre.