What we have described so far would prompt many people to jump out of their skin, and this is only a brief and superficial description of the beginning. But at this point Adam was used to strange experiences and he is a very rational person in some respects. His spontaneous attitude and reaction is always to observe and analyze events, trying to understand their causes and meaning. Perhaps this trait of character has been counterproductive in this situation, because Adam has accepted all possible kinds of madness without batting an eyelid just to understand it better, but that is how he is. Anyway, Adam was not in control, and he could not prevent things from happening. So now there was some kind of autonomous formation of energy operating around him, from time to time enveloping him, disappearing again, manifesting in front of him, or at a distance of five or six yards away. The energy had obviously a great transformative power and was able to interact with Adam’s subtle system and consciousness, producing all kinds of fantastic images, visions and moods. It also affected his polarity-structure. Of course he was not completely without a preliminary understanding of the phenomenon, since he already suspected an intervention from B and his energy-background and had from lucid dreaming formed the hypothesis of a magic and demonic motive, either with B or in some way related to Adam’s own make-up, but he had absolutely no idea of the total nexus. Nonetheless, Adam stayed relatively calm and confident, taking the necessary precautions. From astrological analysis he expected a major turn of events with a double shift of axes and other weighty aspects coming up, and this analysis was continued throughout the whole course showing collective and rare constellations at exact turning points. So there seemed to be a meaning and a method in the madness.

But nothing or nobody could have prepared Adam for the real thing. Shortly afterwards the course of events escalated drastically, and he was suddenly confronted with a circular, whitish energy-structure, which came directly at him out of nowhere. It was as real and objectively visible as a cloud. Adam tried to push it back with his hands, but he did not succeed. This time he was rather terrified, because the energy blocked the polarity in his body completely and rendered him defenceless, since he could no longer manipulate or dispel the energy with his hands. When Adam stretched out his arms and hands, he could barely sense his own quality-aura on account of this invasion, touching the spiritual layers with his fingertips, and his hands went numb. He felt that the depolarization of his energy-system threatened his life. Then Adam desperately tried to scatter or dissolve the energy, calling out for Christ, and apparently he succeeded in this. But in reality he only managed to disperse the energy out in the fringes of his aura, thus forming an equally divided layer here. This is the best way to describe the distinct sensations and the process going on for nearly two hours, but we are not certain that it is factual or complete. No doubt this phenomenon could produce any number of imaginations and sensations to prove a point. Anyhow, with this development the situation changed and came closer to a state of “possession”, because the invading energy was more permanently installed in Adam’s aura-structure as a circle. The quality of the energy was still very electric and prickling and rather like magnetic plasma. We associate the circle with the perimeter of the circus-tent, set up by the Sorath-boy, since his show took place within this ring-structure. You could also say that this circle was the “magic ring” surrounding the Centre and B’s activities, or even that is was B’s direct imprint of “pseudo-spirituality” in Adam’s aura, since this energy had the watermark of pious illusion in all its metamorphoses.  It all boils down to the same thing. Eventually it became apparent, that the image of a tent finally represented the descending field of energy [the diameter was approximately 600 feet], which was about to envelop Adam’s house and the nearby surroundings, since this was the operative range of the principle on Adam’s body-functions, as we shall explain later.

We connect this experience of the invading cloud with Adam’s experience of death as a boy, with the upsurge of the negative kundalini at the Centre and with the initial opening experience, all of them previous and partial impacts on his aura by the magic energy. In the two first experiences the impact was “spontaneous” and chaotic. The first attack by the demon was on the solar plexus through mounting fear and directed at the heart in order to produce an OBE or NDE. There was indeed an experience of dying, but the etheric and spiritual system kept Adam safe in the body. Otherwise the demon would have invaded his structure and changed his personality, leaving some part of him hanging “out there” in the astral. The second attack was more organized, as it was prepared by the processes on the Centre and probably formatted by B, directed against the root-chakra. Adam was left stripped of almost everything and had no persona in the following years of fatigue, but he did not involve himself deeper with the Centre or seize the ultimate illusion – instead he decided to leave both behind and walk away. Then after the opening Adam got back the “abducted” persona and tried to balance this process till later the “fine clothing” was recovered in the unearthed coffin belonging to Satan’s servant. We ponder why, but for some reason male show off is always seen in a relative balance with the feminine principle, negative or positive, and with evil – take for instance a type like B and his four dakinis! Anyway, Adam had eventually compromised himself through all his actions, intentional or unintentional, conscious or unconscious, and had internalized the demon in many different personal and existential aspects through his life. But he had also tried to distance himself and realize truth and goodness, so now it was high time to confront the underlying evil motive, intruding on him in this mysterious cloud. The initial opening was of course far better balanced and the accompanying OBE under conscious control. There was a similar separation of the spiritual quality and the representation of the lower astral as Adam now experienced in the two outer ring-layers of his aura, representing the real and the fake qualities, and we suspect, that the brief segregation and interaction between the two structures in the initial opening was the actual background for the subsequent prolonged process, in which the content of the astral was unveiled. 

The next development was again quite unexpected and really astonishing, and from then on Adam was in the middle of an unfathomable other-worldly process that he had never even dreamed of as being possible and yet he was all the time surrounded by his familiar physical reality, existing simultaneously in two realities. It was like some kind of veil did no longer separate Adam from the invisible dimension. In the evening there was a drastic shift of atmosphere in the house, in which an archetypical level of energy seemed to rise up and the demons started to haunt. The energy came at Adam with vehement force. From all around he was constantly hit by tiny arrows or splinters of energy. There was an accompanying experience of witches dancing and hurling towards him, lead by a chief sorceress, no doubt representing the Ka/Akh-structure and the past stimulation of sexual fantasy and behaviour. The experience was again highly interactive, since the assault changed with Adam’s reactions as if somebody watched him, and in the same manner the imagery shifted imperceptibly with his expectations or perhaps he was just intuitively abreast of developments or in a confluent state of consciousness. The splinters burned dryly in Adam’s body-energy and made his muscles actually tremble and quiver and they ached like splinters of glass. They were of a magnetic nature, but Adam could not draw them out with the energy of his hands. They also had a built-in knowledge of the body and the energy-system and a purposeful vivacity to them, starting instantly to travel along lines that we presume were identical with the meridians. The attack and accompanying pain was so overwhelming and severe, that Adam almost succumbed. Again he reached out his arms above his head and pleaded for help, and surprisingly someone or something then grabbed his hands! This was an absolutely clear and vivid sensation, as if in reality someone held Adam’s hands, but no one was there! The “touch” dragged him down on the floor, and then a dozen invisible pairs of hands started to heal his body-system, drawing the arrows out or through him. At that time Adam thought that the intervening forces were rescuing him, but later he suspected that they in reality stitched him up and sewed him in, the arrows being the needles and the energy-lines the thread, as part of the overall wrapping in of a strange energy he experienced afterwards. In our opinion no doubt “the hands” actually took temporary possession of Adam’s body, but they were the healing devas and they followed the lines of a negative Luciferic and Ahrimanic “wiring” of Adam’s subtle energy-system, releasing this imprint and showing him, how we humans are actually hurting and conditioning ourselves in a number of activities, which are not in proper balance with femininity and creativity! Adam was quite exhausted, tormented and absolutely perplexed. But the experience of first attack and pain and then care and comfort had made an impression on him, as if there were some force of protection involved. It made him trustful, and we suspect that this was a deliberate manipulation of his mind and emotions. The process went on for hours, and Adam was afterwards prostrated with fatigue, but still mentally composed.

Anyway, this event marked the onset of a strange regime of Adam’s body, mind and life that went on for the next three months day and night. In fact he had lost control completely. He had really nowhere to turn for help, as he thought that nobody would be able to draw the energy out of his system due to its strange character or understand what was happening to him. The only realistic course of action, Adam could imagine, was to play along with the invading force or principle. There was no polarity left in the energy of his hands, and the manipulations of energy continued in and around his body in the most complex manner and with all sorts of sensations. It came out of nowhere and manifested everywhere, dissolving all boundaries between inner and outer dimensions, so Adam was rather helpless and delivered. It is truly impossible to account for all the features and incidents of this experience. It is perhaps best described as a continuous bombardment of complex interactions and experiences no less dramatic and intense than the one described, and so it makes no sense to try to pick out any particular monstrosity above all the others. There was an ongoing communication on many levels and in all directions like a playing hide and seek and an experiment with reactions, as if Adam was a play-toy for a very superior intelligence. Perhaps a cosmic illusionist or a transcendent prankster – Adam really could not tell for sure. And at that time he had of course not pieced anything together yet or seen any outcome of it. He was totally baffled, but inquisitive, working extremely hard to figure out the context and the real identity of the orchestrating principle, which constantly made suggestions and invented grand illusions to feed his imagination and thinking.

For instance one whole evening and night shortly after the above experience a full sequence of initiation was staged in a mystic circle complete with disciples and an old master, karmic relations and stories, ceremonies, dances and everything. Adam was led and instructed by an invisible hand leading his hand as if it was there physically, pulling and directing him, and soon his own hand was “taken over” and started to move involuntarily on its own. Figures and coulisses were seen in a medium ranging between active imagination and astral vision. The beautiful and dramatic scenery was rapidly replaced by an even more impressive archetypical picture of the apocalyptical conflict including the impressive apparition of the beast 666. This was in fact only a joking play with all Adam’s “spiritual imaginations” and “delusional self-image” build up on the Centre, fed by B and Lucifer in unison and in reality not so different from most of the fancy New Age-identity people are promoting themselves on these days. The idea was of course to dismantle it all, and it worked by the way. It was really a big laugh, but at the time Adam went along with a distinct feeling of unease. He was soon made to enact different roles within a series of story-frames, presented with different scripts, set-ups, characters, symbols, intentions and explanations. He followed through, trying at the same time to establish some kind of pattern and fixed points for evaluation and interpretation, resorting quickly to inferential strategies, but the principle shifted framework and explanation every time Adam started to feel secure and on the track of it. It stripped off his defences elegantly, thus leaving him constantly behind in analysis and in his intellectual coping-strategy, all the time rendering the experience ambivalent and opaque. It was indeed a circus, but no less a circus than his previous life in general or the years on the Centre in particular. Adam was terrorized and made terrified in many instances, but managed to keep his mind and personality together, and he did not split or lose faith. You can say he was more disenchanted that disillusioned, since Adam has no need to be anybody special. But from the experience we can tell for certain, that it is absolutely no problem for Sorath and his companions to equip a person like B or any New Ager with a complete “spiritual”, “karmic” and sensational, but absolutely fake identity.